do you ever just look at someone and know they would die in a zombie apocalypse
It’s 1:30 in the morning.. and i can’t stop thinking. too much has changed.. i’m changing too much. i feel like the world had just dropped ontop of me. i feel like i’ve died.. and currently in the process of being reincarnated. is that why everything is flipping in circles and spinning in all sorts of unpredictable ways? Also.. i can’t forget it. after a long day of distracting myself. i remembered… my dream last night? not a good one. i died…. i was a super hero, i was a super villian… i held all the power in the world, and all of it’s respectable responsibilities. i felt helpless, and i realized. this wasn’t just because you were in there either… it was because that’s how my life is right now. i am far too deep in too much, and i’m too important to let any of it go. too valuable to risk everything to take care of myself. that’s why i’m sitting here… restless and unable to sleep tonight… because i can’t fix myself… i can’t change myself back to how i used to be.. i’m glued here in this situation where i have to help everyone else, and rot my insides.. waiting for someone to make me do otherwise.. to persuade me.. convince me… not threaten and blackmail. i can’t sleep… and i can’t talk to anyone cause you’re all asleep..